Unless the LORD builds the house, they labour in vain who build it; unless the LORD guards the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. Psalm 127:1

Grace meant that I didn’t need to build the house anymore.

For many years I was an over achiever in academic study, life and much more. I had to be number one. There was no other option. I studied and pushed myself to the limit and when things didn’t go my way, it was unthinkable, I couldn’t possibly have scored less than first place.

Over time I lost the spark that made me unique, the very essence of my ability. I had become colder and cantankerous and when others succeeded I’d grumble and gripe. There was no peace or contentment to my current blessing or situation.

Slowly and graciously God started to pick apart my ideals, he undid the knot that was my constant need for success at the expense of everything and everyone else. It was his love that showed me that his dream for me was different, his ways not my ways.

Thankfully Daddy God supplies all I need, He opens the doors and He ensures I’m qualified before I’m called to do whatever is asked of me. Each day is still a struggle in this area but I know that my source of trust is in Daddy God rather than in my own works and ability.